Easter 2021 Reflections

๐‰๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž ๐‘๐ž๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐’๐ฎ๐ง๐๐š๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ, ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐จ๐ง๐ž ๐ก๐š๐ฌ ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ฅ๐ญ ๐š ๐›๐ข๐ญ ๐จ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ž. โฃ
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I didn’t grow up observing this day. On the contrary, I grew up in a fundamentalist vacuum that frowned on anything having to Easter due to pagan influences on the traditions surrounding this day. As I broke away from my restrictive upbringing, I remained open to the over-the-top Easter performances/productions that were a main staple in the new world that I called home. However, no matter how great the production, there was always an overwhelming sense of exhaustion once it was over. And to be honest, I find it easier to connect with Jesus when there isn’t an expectation for me to perform. โฃ
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Despite it being Resurrection Sunday, I still hesitated to step into church today. Although the state of Arizona has lifted many of its restrictions surrounding gatherings and mask-wearing, I still can’t help but view the congregation as a virus-hungry petri-dish. โฃ
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Throughout 2020, I’ve been super-careful to follow all of the CDC guidelines for COVID prevention. However, I still ended up testing positive for COVID last month. While I’m grateful that my symptoms were minimal, I honestly thought I was suffering from seasonal allergies. With that in mind, I can’t help wonder who all I would have passed the virus to if I had attended church during that timeโ€ฆ. I have multiple church friends who are cancer survivors, who have compromised immunity, and who fit the “at-risk” categoryโ€ฆโ€ฆ.I wonder if I would have infected them, and if so, if they would have lived. Thankfully, I do not have to live with that regret. โฃ
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I know several church attenders who are very vocal anti-maskers, who are mega-church members of churches that ridicule and denounce mask-wearing and social distancing, and that have tested positive for COVID. In like manner, I can’t help but wonder how many members of their churches and community were infected and/or died because they were practicing what they believe to be their “๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ”. To be honest, this saddens me and I’m struggling with knowing how to relate to this self-centered form of religiosity. Perhaps, this is something that you can help me pray about. โฃ
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I am now vaccinated and should be clear to attend church starting next week. Nevertheless, I am treading this step with nervousness and uncertainty. I’m not sure where I will be attending yet. I just know that it’s time for me to decide and it’s a painful process. There are pre-COVID practices that I wish to embrace and some that I am choosing to leave behind meโ€ฆโ€ฆ. I guess it’s time for a Resurrection. โฃ
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Blessings, โฃ
John-Eli

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  1. Thank you for your honesty in this post. I know too many people who reject the vaccines, social distancing, and masks as “attacks on our freedom.” Like you, though, I would hate to see my “freedom” cause a vulnerable person to catch this deadly disease.
    I’m not sure any of us can truly get back to pre-COVID practices, but I look forward to a day when we can return to at least a half-normal existence.

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