Men and depression

by John Eli on February 25, 2020February 25, 2020

So, I supressed my feelings…⁣
I hid behind a million masks…⁣
I self-medicated…⁣
….. and I almost lost it all….⁣

Life outside of dysfunction

by John Eli on July 5, 2019July 8, 2019

I chose to live

by John Eli on June 11, 2018January 30, 2019

The urgency to make a decision became louder by the minute. I hadn’t yet settled on a response and didn’t know how to go about it. Any decision would be difficult. There were two paths that lay before me. Both were difficult to face.

Don’t you dare try to tell me how to feel! (pt. 3)

by John Eli on May 21, 2018January 30, 2019

Explaining that you are experiencing grief over something that you’ve never had is a hard thing for many to understand. However, this is my reality, and it’s one that becomes more intense as the years pass me by.

Grace in the midst of the fires of pain

by John Eli on April 23, 2018April 24, 2018

Here I am, struggling, but choosing to live the best life that I can, despite my circumstances. Here I am, grateful for everyone, and everything, that I do have. I am appreciative of the many, many blessings provided just for me.

My struggle to define masculinity

by John Eli on April 16, 2018January 30, 2019

For years, I gave people the power to define masculinity for me. This confused the heck out of me. Truth is, I’ve been given an example of who I want to model my life after….

My path from self-hate to acceptance

by John Eli on February 19, 2018January 30, 2019

There was a time in my life when I literally hated the sound of my name. Somewhere, in the dark corridors of my mind, I created a story of shame. The story of shame included the sound of my name.