90 days ago I found myself at work, staring at the screen, hearing the phone ring, but unable to click on the dialer to answer it.
What once had been a joy to me (supporting students), had unexpectedly transformed itself into a trigger- setting off a panic attack that sent me on a tailspin toward an emotional and cognitive shutdown.
Tag Archives: grief
Healing my Grief (Day2)
I find some mornings more difficult to wake up to than others.
Today was one of those days.
When the song ends….
Yesterday, my wife and I got the news that one of the young leaders from our church had taken ill and was at the hospital. As we usually do, we stopped what we were doing and said a prayer for her. Since it was going to be a busy morning, we made plans to visitContinue reading “When the song ends….”
I forgave myself
When I reached the top of the climb, I took a moment to view the scenery and admire God’s creation. As I took a deep breathe, I made a decision to forgive myself.
Don’t you dare try to tell me how to feel! (pt. 3)
Explaining that you are experiencing grief over something that you’ve never had is a hard thing for many to understand. However, this is my reality, and it’s one that becomes more intense as the years pass me by.
Don’t you dare try to tell me how to feel! (pt. 1)
My life has been filled with people who have “lovingly” tried to tell me “how to feel”, “when to feel”, and “what not to feel.”
Pain & Beauty: The start of my new journey
… for a brief moment, I experienced the agony that Jesus felt as he carried the weight of our sin to the cross. I felt waves of sadness, heartache, and disappointment… Yet, at the same time I was overtaken by a Tsunami of love…..
John Eli Garay, MBA/MS, LAC 