From Suicidal to Healing

by John Eli on July 12, 2021July 12, 2021

From the age of 17-20, I was extremely suicidal. Most people were unaware of this because I hid my inner turmoil behind a big smile. But the pain was real and it eventually became more than I could bear…..

One good breath deserves another

by John Eli on November 11, 2019June 23, 2021

I couldn’t help but feel admiration for him. How does one stand up and make such a bold statement at the heals of your best friend ending his own life? Yet he spoke as eloquently as he could despite his pain. Little did he know that those words would echo in my mind for days to come.

I chose to live

by John Eli on June 11, 2018January 30, 2019

The urgency to make a decision became louder by the minute. I hadn’t yet settled on a response and didn’t know how to go about it. Any decision would be difficult. There were two paths that lay before me. Both were difficult to face.

Grace in the midst of the fires of pain

by John Eli on April 23, 2018April 24, 2018

Here I am, struggling, but choosing to live the best life that I can, despite my circumstances. Here I am, grateful for everyone, and everything, that I do have. I am appreciative of the many, many blessings provided just for me.